TMI....

Today the title is TMI because I am going to reveal some person information.

In the beginning it doesn't sound like it has anything to do with my quest to find the inner skinny girl in me, but I feel like it is all connected. So here goes. I was born into a family of addicts. Mostly my mom's side of the family. We have no joke....more than 5 crackheads in her line, we have alcoholics, and prescription drug addicts as well. When I say this I am being 100% for real. These aren't distant relatives most are really close. Never in my life had I ever done drugs. My mom herself had so many issues I would have to stay here all night telling you her issues. She passed away in 2010. Honestly I never understood the CHOICES she made. Tonight though as I drove home from a very stressful 11.5 hour work day.... The voice in my head tried to get me to stop at cookout for an oreo milkshake (my mouth is watering as I type that)....then it tried to get me to go to waffle house. 

I am very proud to report that I made it home....the whole 23 min drive without giving in. I had a handful of peanuts and a banana as my midnight snack! 

My whole reason for telling you about the addicts is for once I felt sorrow for my mom, I felt like for once I understood the mental stress she must have been dealing with on a daily basis. She was a good woman but made a lot of BAD CHOICES.... and that is exactly what we do,  we choose.... 

My fabulous trainer....that is also my #1 support person told me today that the reason we do anything it is because we want to.... if YOU want to lose weight, YOU  will eat right and exercise, if YOU  want to do drugs, YOU  will do drugs. So needless to say although it is a daily struggle... I will choose to do GOOD not bad! Thanks for all of your support! And if the voice in your head tells you that you can't do something..... CALL IT A LIAR! YOU  can do anything....anything that YOU  choose to do!  

Hard work....

So this year has been fantastic so far! I have been busting my tail at gym and watching my food almost perfectly. But no one is perfect! Several great things have happened in the last week.

The most awesome thing well i guess they are all awesome! 1. My trainer told me today that one of his clients....a fighter...who trains like a beast everyday said he was impressed with how hard i was working out! You can't imagine just how much that meant to me! 

2. While getting dressed on Wednesday i looked in the mirror and finally saw something different! My body is finally showing some of my hard work! My trainer also told me that the changes in your body take place like a flower....you notice changes on the outside first....like arms, legs and then your stomach. 

3. Yesterday during my fighting class i noticed that my ability to keep up with the guys in class is getting so much better! 

II think 2013 is going to be an amazing year!! 

New Year....Small Steps...

These pictures above were March of 2010 and March 2012. I won the same award 2 yrs apart. Some days when I look in the mirror I still see the 264lb girl on the left. 

1-1-13 This shirt is to small but soon it will fit.....

So It is Tuesday 1-1-2013.... I was lying in bed trying to go to sleep and all I could do was think about all the changes that each year brings with it. 2000, 2003, 2010 & 2012 were the most life changing years I have had so far in my 33 year life. 

2000 was the death of my older sister. She was more like a mother than my own mom.

2003 was the birth of my miracle child that I never thought I would have....doctors told me when I was 16,  I wouldn't ever be able to have children...WRONG! 

2010.... well I don't even know where to start.... March 2010 I was in the top 12 in my company of 530 General Mangers... May of 2010 my mother died....it is still very hard for me to deal with on a daily basis....I  joined RHEK October of 2010....I finally ended a 10 year terrible relationship in November 2010. 

2012, I was down 60lbs, and healthier than ever before....mentally and psychically.... I was #2 in my company of 530 General Managers!

I don't make new years resolutions because let's be honest by March you give up or get slack. This year I decided to set a goal.... by 1-1-2014 the clothes in the picture above will be to big, and by putting this pic on here I feel like I have to prove I can keep moving forward to myself as well as everyone reading. FYI that shirt is a medium.... I used to have an XL but I left it in a hotel....one of my trainers used to LOVE making fun of me when I was wearing my old shirt...."It's not easy being green is it Chrisie?" ~ RH

Funny Story when I look at the picture from today on my computer I think to myself.. WOW you don't look  bad....you have came a long long way... but in all honesty while taking that picture in person I was like OMG I am still so far from where I want to be, but small steps forward....